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Silent Tears [Orch] heart-moving
I have no words to describe what I felt while listening to your song and reading your comment, but I've found tears streaking down my cheeks after I listened to it. You are one of the few composers I've had the great opportunity to listen to that puts true passion and love into their music. Your songs are different from all others, they're pure and from the heart. I felt like the song itself had a soul and a mind of its own, and it connected with mine, and share its emotions with me. I've felt the pain and sorrow you have (I could even say on an even greater scale) but not in the same context - I've lost 3 family members in my childhood, and I'll just leave it at that. It takes a great deal of emotional motivation to make me even mention that to people I don't know - take it as a sign of your extraordinary ability to place emotion in your music :) And every time I had this urge to just freeze in palce, just stay in the past and not let go. But that only causes greater sorrow - the only way to go on is to let your emotions out, scram, cry, punch the walls, etc, channel out all the emotions and free your heart and soul. I've long since resigned with the fact that I can't bring them back, but it would have been easier if it would just stop at that. But these sorts of things literally rip your soul apart, and I think I took one too many hits - they've cooled me down emotionally (not completely emotionless, but still, quite less emotional than your average Joe) and that'll pose a pretty prickly problem for me unless I find a way to bypass this. I've learned one thing: no matter how strong he might look on the outside, no matter how resilient he may seem to be at first glance, a man's soul is comparable to a crystal wine glass - it can take your average bumps and hits, it can even take one stronger hit and still hold on, but if it either gets hit too many times, or a blow lands in a weak spot, it will shatter. I hope noone has to go through such a thing, and if it already happened to some, then I hope they don't have to go through it again. I've asked myself and the Almighty One "Why?", but I guess that's fate, He has plans for all of us - I'll have to live with it, and maybe one day I will finally get the answers I've been seeking since and that I'll keep on seeking until it's my turn to "take the elevator". Anyhow, I hope you will get past it. Don't give up and keep on pushing forward, you will break through. And one day (hopefully soon - babies FTW!) you will find someone who will truly care about you. Cheers, and keep on posting songs here, the AP needs you.